I Don't Know What I Want But I Know What I Don't Want

It's been so long since I've been back here - figured that I will share my favourite quote from Vicky Christina Barcelona.

x r.ang

Bob the community cat is missing - I hope he's fine in this crazy rainy weather =(

Meringue!

With you, I laugh

But you dont see the tears I cry when I'm alone at night.

Ling.Rang

XOXO

Love.Sun.Friends.

Finger licking good!

tired & emooing = Amei songs

张惠妹 - 你是爱我的

同样的一场日落
同样你还是没说
只是抱紧我
时间一到就松手
你用一万个理由
都比沉默还温柔
为什么爱我又不断退后
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛

我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

我用一万个答案
解释我们的距离
到最后发现我全都猜错
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛

我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯
你怀里有太多问号
告诉我怎么依靠

我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

你是爱我的Ni Shi Ai Wo De - Zhang Hui Mei

Kiss Goodbye... I love this song to bits

Baby不要再哭泣
Baby bu yao zai ku qi

這一幕多麼熟悉
zhe yi mu duo mo shu xi

緊握著你的手彼此
jin wo zhe ni de shou bi ci

都捨不得分離
dou she bu de fen li

每一次想開口
mei yi ci xiang kai kou

但不如保持安靜
dan bu ru bao chi an jing

給我一分鐘專心
gei wo yi fen zhong zhuan xin

好好欣賞你的美
hao hao xin shang ni de mei

幸福搭配悲傷
xing fu da pei bei shang

同時在我心交叉
tong shi zai wo xin jiao cha

挫折的眼淚
cuo zhe de yan lei

不能測試愛的重量
bu neng ce shi ai de zhong liang

付出的愛收不回
fu chu de ai shou bu hui

還欠你的我不能給
hai qian ni de wo bu neng gei

別把我心也帶走 去跟隨
bie ba wo xin ye dai zou qu gen sui

(Chorus)

每一次和你分開
mei yi ci he ni fen kai

深深的被你打敗
shen shen de bei ni da bai

每一次放棄你的溫柔 痛苦 難以釋懷
mei yi ci fang qi ni de wen rou tong ku nan yi shi huai

每一次和你分開
mei yi ci he ni fen kai

每一次Kiss You Goodbye
mei yi ci Kiss You Goodbye

愛情的滋味此刻我終於最明白
ai qing de zi wei ci ke wo zhong yu zui ming bai

幸福搭配悲傷
xing fu da pei bei shang

同時在我心交叉
tong shi zai wo xin jiao cha

挫折的眼淚
cuo zhe de yan lei

不能測試愛的重量
bu neng ce shi ai de zhong liang

付出的愛收不回
fu chu de ai shou bu hui

還欠你的我不能給
hai qian ni de wo bu neng gei

我才明白愛最真實的滋味
wo cai ming bai ai zui zhen shi de zi wei

emooo song of the moment

DreamzFM (Meng Fei Chuan) - Bu Zhi De (Not Worthy)

除了想你 除了爱你
Chu le xiang ni, chu le ai ni
Besides thinking of you, besides loving you

hu ~ 我什么什么都愿意
hu ~ wo shen me shen me dou yuan yi
hu ~ I’m willing to do anything

翻开日记 整理心情
Fan kai ri ji zheng li xin qing
Flipping through the diary, straightening up my mood

hu ~ 我真的真的想放弃
hu ~ Wo zhen de zhen de xiang fang qi
hu ~ I really, really think of giving up

你始终没有爱过
Ni shi zhong mei you ai guo
All along, you have never loved [me] before

你在敷衍我
Ni zai fu yan wo
You are patronizing me

一次一次忽略我的感受
Yi ci yi ci hu lüe wo de gan shou
Every time [you always] neglected my feelings

我真的感到力不从心
Wo zhen de gan dao li bu cong xin
I finally feel helpless

无力继续
Wu li ji xu
No more strength to continue

这感情 不值得我犹豫
Zhe gan qing bu zhi de wo you yu
This feeling, is not worth it for me to hesitate

不值得我考虑
Bu zhi de wo kao lü
Not worth for me to think over

不值得我爱过你
Bu zhi de wo ai guo ni
It’s not worth it that I once loved you

这种回忆 不值得我提起
Zhe zhong hui yi bu zhi de wo ti qi
This piece of memory is not worth for me to mention

不值得想起
Bu zhi de xiang qi
Not worth to think about

不值得哭泣
Bu zhi de ku qi
Not worth crying for

这段感情 早就应该放弃
Zhe duan gan qing zao jiu ying gai fang qi
This feeling should be given up earlier

早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
Zao jiu bu gai rang wo lang fei shi jian zhao qi ji
That way, early on it would have not wasted my time looking for a miracle

这样的你 不值得我恨你
Zhe yang de ni bu zhi de wo hen ni
Having you like this, is not worth for me to hate you

不值得我为你而坏了心情
Bu zhi de wo wei ni er huai le xin qing
Not worth for me to ruin my mood because of you

我决定不为你而毁了心
Wo jue ding bu wei ni er hui le xin
I’ve decided not to let my heart break because of you

放弃爱你
Fang qi ai ni
[I’ve] Given up loving you

A night of Buttered Popcorn & Butter Factory

All I can say is: "it was fun being out with long hair+curls!"

2009: Ice Cream , Fireworks & Taboo

And so I ushered in 2009 with my bunch of friends I made years back while in the UK - and it was good. No, actually it was Great!

Quiet affair of lovely Udders ice cream; gossiping about Fiona Xie, Andea Fonseka, Michelle Chia, Jade Seah while they pranced on national TV; sniggered when Tay Ping Hui sang "I'm Yours" and screamed with joy when I could see the fireworks from the living room of my friend's lovely Lincoln Modern apartment!

Night was fueled with Taboo (boys VS girls), McDonalds, HBO movies of Pirates of the Carribbean & Harry Potter... Hmmm... not much alcohol but it sure was a nice & cosy night.

Glad my lovely friends talked me out of going to the Marina Barrage alone - I'm sure it would have been nice seeing the fireworks up close but having the company of my friends was definately better. The view from the apartment was great + having the TV showing the fireworks with a 5sec lag was entertaining too! Must say this year's fireworks were Really nice. Big, new colors of purple & gold and there were new formations too.

Puts a smile on my face.

I now welcome 2009 with a smile, warm heart and open mind.

With great friends - nothing can be That bad after all.

*grin*

Deleted

In box/sent box's completely empty.
Just need to work on those 'saved' messages later.

Sigh.

I pray for strength.

Ouch ouch ouch!

Damn I knew it was coming but yet I still had to bite hard on my lips to remind myself not to shed any tears, along with taken quick deep breaths (thought I was going to hyperventilate for a moment...)

So I end up with watery eyes and temptation to burst out into tears any moment but I know I should not.

Ok ok calm down. *breath breath*

"Now you know what to do come midnight tonight"

I am so not looking forward to 2009


*There are only so many ways to break me - I think he has done so in all possible ways*

Cupcakes

Everytime I see one, I'm sure I will think of you...
Maybe all the better - so that I will lay off red velvets and get red of my sweet tooth.

Ha. Sorry for the pun but it sure made me laugh when I'm supposed to be emo at this moment.

Eleven minutes into the 31st

I am very scared of 2009.

Because 2009 is when I am suppose to make major decisions/changes/choices - and I don't really want to face them all.

Can I just stay in 31st 2008 forever? First time in my life that I am not looking to the clock striking twelve... fireworks will make me smile, but at that same moment - I know my heart will be breaking.

='(