ah..went back to the Aztecs exhibition today and when me and penappa got there at 12.30pm, there was a long snaking queue infront of us!!!!!!!!!! i couldnt believe my eyes! was wondering what the blooody occasion it was? its just a monday.......
well..queued for abt 45mins in the rain (luckily i brought out my pink umbrella =P) and it was so crowded inside. everytime i stopped to sketch and artifact, i could feel someone breathing down my neck, trying to see what i was drawing. bleh. finished finally at 5.30 and...i actually didnt see all of the items! anyway, it was still pouring and so we couldnt go ice skating... =(
another time i guess.....

dunno what to feel towards the coming new year. hope it will be better for everyone, especially for wan ying!

btw, >> Tress! i got your xmas card today! it was postmarked the 17th dec, but it took 13 days to get to me!!! thats how slow the post office works i gues.heee. thanks alot!

Happy New Year to you all in Singapore!!!!

read about this if you are free. explains about what wan ying has been dignosed with.

http://kidshealth.org/parent/infections/bacterial_viral/encephalitis.html

http://www.encephalitisglobal.com/

[Treatments

There is very little treatment for viral infections other than for herpes viruses which are treated with an anti-viral drug Acyclovir. Rest is important and peace and quiet to allow the body to fight the infection. Other medication is given to treat specific areas affected e.g. anti-convulsants for seizures, antibiotics to prevent other (bacterial) infections, sedatives to keep the person calm. If the inflammation is serious, heavy sedation may be given and the person put on a life support machine. This takes over all body functions allowing the body to rest totally and concentrate on fighting the infection.]

it's the 28th, and heard wan ying is not getting better. ='[
sigh, wish i wasnt so far away!



"prayer is the breath of the soul"

i err..just heard how bad wanying's situation is. i dunno how to explain my feelings now...... but but i know that God has his ways.
pray is all i can do.... and pray i will.
i miss every single one of you all soooo much, i wish i was there with you all right now. ='(

" there can be miracles, when you believe"

ello ello! its boxing day! spent xmas night playing cards and downing water again, but this time i had soooo much water, i think i was practically 'water high'. is there such a thing? just came back from dinner, had chinese. hee...first proper meal in 3days! have been munching on peanuts, chocolate digestive biscuits, pringles, bananas, oranges, pizza, fish fillet, fish fingers, french toast, nachos, cheese biscuits, french fries....and and....ooh....chocolates and turkish delights!
hee......feel fat reading what i have thrown into my system? weighed myself and i am still 50kg! so i can eat some more. Yippie!!!!

so that's about it.
i spent christmas playing PS2, playing cards, downing loads of water, snacking n sleeping on the sofa.

maybe i'll go shopping tomorrow. they have mega huge post-xmas sales! =P

*yawn* its 5.40pm on christmas day and i havent stepped out the house! dun think i will be, shops closed, nothing ard.
watched Don Q, the ballet on tv, followed by Thunderball, the James bond show. Wow! Sean Connery looks so diff when he was younger, but he looks better older. heh
the main female in the show, Domino, she POWER!!!! super chio. now going to surf online to find out more about her. hee.....


"let it snow, let it snow, let it snow......"
if only =)

ahhh...merry christmas peeps! it's 2.59am here. i'm at junie's & yu tsang place again and were just playing cards & PS2. heh...squirmed my way out of drinking alchohol when i lost at the card games, but was made to drink Loads of water! now feeling super bloated> near to the point of puking. =P

xmas is really really quiet. sigh....
wish i was back with you all!
miss each and every single one of you loads!

hmmm...why the 7210??? its got no camera! hee....
reasons, i need reasons.

it's eleven now, taking a break from writing the remaining cards. *yawn* i dun believe it! i woke up so late but i am already feeling tired......
ahhh...i have yet to get a mobile phone, but i spotted an online promotion. i can either get the nokia 7210, or the 7650 for free!!! heee.... the conditions are> 1 yr contract and 27.99 (pounds of course)per mth for the talk time, but i can change talk time plan after 3 mths!

Opinions Opinions!!! which phone to get? the slim 7210 with a horrible keypad, or the bulky but savy 7650 with built-in camera??
please leave your suggestions on my tag board> that little column on the lower left!

thanks!

erm....got woken at 12+ i think but my body refused to budge and i lazed in till 3pm.
then....realised that i havent finish writing my xmas cards!!!! arghs....rushed through the 1st batch and rushed out to post them.
now...i have to settle the 2nd batch.

so.....be prepared....my cards will be very very very late.
it's the thought that counts yah? heh

*Sigh* think christmas here sucks. All the shops will be closed and there will be no public transport! except for those black market taxis.
lso, i've only got my Hong Kong flatmate, William for company. the whole place is sooooo quiet.
will have another Singaporean gal moving in with me for a week or so, cos her school hall totally shuts down & kicks the students out!
Thank God for my hall.

woke up at 2pm, went on the net and chatted with friends till now > 6.33pm. most have gone to sleep, so now it's back to quiet time for myself. i look around my room and it's still messed up, guess i'll have to clean it up soon.....
was feeling really up and perky after a conversation of spiritual stuff with G.T. figured then that i would be better and handle my feelings better.


then had my conversation with him (not G.T), but i kinda made him upset with me, and i felt down again.

why do i get so easliy affected?
i think it's time to let go of things soon, and clean up this little mess i've created.
feelings + emotions really screw people up.
it's screwed me up.

Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on you own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

maybe i just have to let God handle it all and bask in his love..................................

psalms 52:8
but i am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God;i trust in God's unfailing love for ever and ever.

::saturday.
::woke up like 1pm today.
::too late to go for service.
::killed time by going onto the net.
::made a call back to my parents.
::heard the usual naggings but felt somehow better after the call.
::finally got my lazy ass out of the flat at 3.15pm to meet sis and friends.
::got to bond st, bought a bagel and sat around listening to their conversations.
::went to Selfriges ( a huge department store ) to get somemore last minute gifts.
::i ended up with more chocolates and sweets for myself.
::bought a Lindt bar, a nougat bar, and a box of turkish delights.
::had dinner at Wagamama, a modern westernised Jap restuarant.
::western 'cos the food doesn't taste anything like Jap food.
::went to a pub to have after dinner conversations.
::swirling ciggie smoke kinda put me into a dazed mode.
::clothes stink of smoke.
::headed for home @ 11pm by tube.
::missed the last bus to bring me up the hill that i have to walk up to get home.
::decided to flag a cab.
::was a quick ride & the driver was pleasant.
::ride cost me 4.20pounds.
::now it's 1:14am and i am sitting on my bed, typing this and feeling really really empty.
::maybe it's just the holidays, leaving me with too much time to kill and have weird thoughts.
::i think i have changed.
::i no longer am the bubbly cheerful person i was.
::i shut myself from the people here.
::and talk to only a handful of my classmates.
::why?
::i was never like this.
::always thought i was 'friendly'.
::people change, and maybe so have i.
::or maybe i have just closed my heart to everyone, everything.
::i don't want to be hurt anymore.
::can i survive in this surreal world of my own?
::can i survive on my own?
::or will i wither and get blown into little pieces.
::and my presence never felt again?
::does it matter anyway?
::never really felt that i fitted in.
::into this world, this life.
::i was always someone lurking around, filling up the little spaces.
::maybe i was made to be like this.
::never really important but having to exist somehow.
::wish i was just a cat.
::a cat with a loving owner.
::cant type anymore.
::i am practically choking with unwanted emotions.
::emotions that are swelling up in my throat.
::love hurts.
::void kills.

::good night.

it's coming to the 3rd month of my arrival to london and i was finally feeling kinda comfortable and settled in, so i decided to go do some xmas shopping on my own today. i couldnt have chosen a worse day..it was raining and frankly speaking, far too near xmas to buy things that i really want to get as they are all sold out. As i was fighting my way through Oxford Street with thousands of people with the same insane idea as me, i felt a dragging tug on my bag. i instantly turned around and pulled it right close to me, and to my horror >>> the front compartment's zip was 3/4 opened!!!!!!! i looked up at that instant and i thought i saw this surprised look on this gal/women or bitch staring at me. i reached in and felt for my wallet and phone which, Thank God! were still intact, took them out of the front compartment and dumped them right inside the main part of my bag.

i was too flustered at that moment to have much of a reaction but as i stepped into Borders to grab a gift....thoughts of me losing my stuff to some bitch-ass professional pickpocket made me super pissed! ( sorry for my intense words...but i have to release the tension ) Just before i came to london, my piano teacher warned me about pickpockets and that somehow or other, everyone who stays in London will get pickpockted at least once! But i dont want to become a victim!!!!!!! It's time to be paranoid again, to view everyone with an 'evil' eye....... think i am never ever going to feel 100% safe in London. boo hoo....i want my normal Singaporean life back....... late nights hanging out in town, catching the night bus, walking back alone and not feeling a single bit of fear.

dear God, why did you bring me to London??? i know You have a plan, but i cant take it anymore. i think i am going nuts! Its too lonely for me, yet the streets are too crowded with people i don't want to be with..... i need someone to really talk to, to share my thoughts with.....to gossip and share some tears with. I know that i should cast all my burdens onto you, but but.....i need someone of physical presence! *sniff* There is this great big void in my life now that i cant fill up and i don't exactly know what it is.

so much of me being independant huh?

Maybe it's time to be really humble and stick my ear out to listen for what the Lord is trying to tell me.

Met up with Penappa today to go for another exhibition, and she was late(the first time, cos i'm always the one who's late!) though this time it was erm..nah. don't want to make her look bad here, cos she reads my blog!

We went for the Aztecs exhibition at the Royal Academy, paid 6pounds for entrance and were happily 'bouncing' into the area with our savy digital cameras in tow, only yo be told " Sorry, no photography of anykind is allowed." We so wanted to kill at that point! It's the 2nd exhibition we've been to and not been allowed to take any photos, so we figure that it's all just because that they want us viewers to pay 40pounds for the stupid catalog. Anyway, we had to resort to digging out our sketch book and try very hard to capture what we thought was interesting/useful for our up-n-coming project due to start when school reopens on Jan 6th....

There are 11 halls in total for the exhibition, and we were only at hall 5 when this bitch thundered into the hall and shouted " this exhibition closes in 10mins." AND, she continued to bug us viewers, herding us like cows through the remaining 6 halls, repeating the line " this exhibition is closed, please leave the hall now" with such coldness in her voice that me & Penappa felt she was going " Get out of this place NOW!"

That was it. we paid 6 pounds for 2 hours in that place and only got to see half of the items! guess we'll have to go back and spend 6 pounds again... its not that it's not worth 6 pounds, but to pay again just to see the other half of it? *sigh*

Went in search of food to cheer us up and we came upon this place call Malaysia Kopitiam. The menu showed: Hainanese chicken rice, Nasi Lemak, Beef rendang, Chicken curry, Ice Kachang and loads more AND i had to go in to taste the food for myself! I had the chicken rice...ooh....it was actually quite good! Think the rest of the menu cant really go wrong because it was all Chinese working in the little cafe-like diner, and there was this middle-aged man who spoke what i would classify as Singlish, + some bits of malay! So i figure that he must be the boss or something, and he would know what Asian food should taste like! =)

Finally, a cheap & quaint little place to remind me of home.

ah.....just had a dinner of homecooked pasta salad [fusilli pasta dressed in olive oil, pepped & salt and topped with grated chedder]. it turned out to be quite shiok leh! went xmas shopping today, walked a lot but bought nothing! instead, ended buying loads more food in Tesco. i seem to have developed this odd behavior of wanting to stock my little kitchen cabinet as well as i can, though it's been 2 mths and i've only got pasta, dried noodles, some canned mocked stuff and loads of things like coating powder for potato wedges, dipping sauce etc and not much meat or vegetables to cook them with!

oh, regarding my laundry, something screwed up. i left my jeans in the dryer for a tad too long [ was on the net talking to zack..... ] and my newest pair of jeans, with courtesy from my sis wardrobe, shrank!!!!!!!! now they end about 1 inch up from my heel...................*arghs*

its 7.35pm now, and Yes! my laundry has finally been washed and dried!!! i have never felt so glad before ah. lets see, i have basically wasted 3/4 of a day trying to get my laundry done and now its too late to go anywhere. *Sigh* guess it's time to start cooking some of the food in my fridge.......