6.21am and i am actually awake doing my work! it's amazing aint it?

watched Master & Commander just now. russell crowe is good, but the plot is err err.....
okie only lah.
waiting in anticipation for LOTR!
dec 17th!

it's a skirt and thats how it's supposed to be worn. below is the lovely price of it.

crazy huh! would you pay $279 for a skirt?

anyway the skirt is not an issue now, cos i got an early xmas pressie from my baby>> a nice nice coat! *elated*
though i feel that i'm kinda undeserving of such a nice pressie. it's too much!
*pout*

nice nice?????

i slept for so long...i think it's my personal record.
from 9pm last night - 12pm today.
am i sick or something i wonder.

*sigh*
off to school now.

listening to Haunted by Evanescence, then it hits me.

i'm emotionally hollow

Jacob's Creek : Semillon Chardonnay vintage 2002.

do you get the gut feeling that things are going to happen, or situations turning out differently as planned?
i do.
all the time in fact.

or do i make myself know what to expect, so that i will be mentally/emotionally numb?

i give what i give, cos "you reap what you sow".

could it be that because i got hurt the last time i gave, that i block myself from feeling too much? that i dun actually let my emotions control me as much anymore?

am i still to afraid to be my real emotional self? or maybe i am better this way?
i am sweeping my unwanted baggage under the carpet and moving on, trying not to look back.

learnt this skill from the cow, who made the chicken see the bigger picture. now she's different.

but for how long?
i really wonder.........

as for the moment,
i dunno what i should feel.

got a hair cut at this poof looking shop, "hair by fairy". went in cos ming was dying for a haircut, & it was cheap!
10.50pounds for a wash and cut.

my shampoo boy was nice, gave me a nice long hairwash and head massage, while ming didnt get any. hee. i left the shop with turned out ends, making me look like a pixie. but alas, i am not able to re-create the look, so i'm back to normal.

today:: went to Bicester shopping village with my sis & her bf, where like all those factory outlets are, selling past season items. went into camper!, diesel, miss sixty, polo ralph, bodum, ck, dkny, fcuk, ted baker, paul smith erm erm....and loads of others.

but my shopping trip only got me: a new CK bra, a pair of diesel jeans & a pressie for ming.
not telling what the pressie is!!!

sheesh.
think i'm getting too stingy for my own good.

"She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell....
She, who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry"

i got FOUR pimples on my face! never ever have i had just a bad break-out!
there's a massive one just above my lips!!!!

*slap*

"shut yourself up.
it's just pimples"

*whine*

i'm munching on honey roasted nuts and drinking sparkling elderflower presse.
i'm getting fat and this doesnt help at all.

sometimes i just feel so horrible about myself.
why cant i have the confidence?

spent the weekend at friend's place, sleeping 2 nights with a cat that goes wacky @ night.
wait. make that TWO cats.
*grin*

then again, i think ALL cats go wacky @ night ya?
tinky winky is so cute! loves to be rubbed with the feet but hates the hand. kinda odd.
i like it best when he lets me carry him like a baby..... simply adorable.

i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat
i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat
i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat
i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat
i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat
i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat i want a cat!!!

i'm never going to get one as long i am in stooopid london.

*fustrated*

brokenchinadoll is gone, and i wish you love.

had a dream last night, that i went home & found out that my cat had died, & my family didnt tell me. felt so lost & heartbroken i couldnt even cry.

i'm thinking too much about cats.

*crazy*

having brie cheese on biscuit.

went cat-sitting just now: a nice black cat with white chest & paws, named tinky-winky. curious little one, which sat in one corner & looked at me watch tv... but aww still so sweet.

i miss my cat.