Monday, August 29, 2005

me + sis + jay(in town from Milan) went to Buckingham Palace yesterday to see the state rooms. No photos cos we aint allowed to take any! bleah. so anyway this was taken after the stateroom tour ended with us on garden grounds of the palace.

I know i look very very upset in this photo but it's just that the sun was in my face & i had to squint....

Jay mimicking the famous royal wave

walking to the souvenier shop and of course, that's my sister with her friendly handsign.


so at 3:27am i can hear some crazy peeps are karaokeing to some rock ballad. for goodness sake you people, go freaking get some sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppppppppppp!!!!!!! i seriously don't see the fun in this annual event. it just makes the streets dirty + oily, the air smell of bbq, everywhere stinking of pee and and... someone actually burned down a wooden bench in the garden infront of my place!

*If only i was a pensioner, the council will actually pay for me to get away from the noise+mess of the weekend.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

secrets: will you share yours?

Every so often, i would go and read the secrets that people have posted in. Some are shocking, some you emphatise with them while some make you laugh but after i've finished scrolling through the secrets, i feel a tinge of envy. Envious that these people have the guts to write their secrets down and post it off... i guess it does work as some sort of output/theraphy.

burst of outbursts

i really hope things will change for the better.
i'm only just a girl... and soon a women.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Blistery Autumn Day

Fifteen pounds was paid
Departure date has been changed
I'll be home for good

Please say you'll fix me...

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Friday, August 19, 2005

happy news

Cherylann's getting married! It's most likely to take place middle of next year. Oooh i'm so elated and excited for her!! The first gal among our group to get hitched. *Awwwww*

Thursday, August 18, 2005

how about a canoe?

So after all the plane crashes that happened recently, i told my sister that maybe i could just take a boat home. Who's to then expect that a ship has sunk off the coast of Columbia, with more than 100 people feared to have drowned. *eeps* I'm getting the jitters...

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

seriously taking the piss

The saga continues with the council tax issues. Just as we were considering to pay our share (which i am not suppose to as i'm not liable), HE tells me that he is going to charge me for his summons too!

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

the end?

today's a day of another airplane crash, 1 helicopter crash, 1 major earthquake... erm, *sigh*

Sunday, August 14, 2005

legal crap

so for the first time in my 24 yrs, i'm getting threatened with legal action. sian ah.... guess i just have to settle the $$$ issues with the scheming ex-landlord.

Saturday, August 13, 2005

beyond words

nothing that is said now will ever change anything that happened.

just say that as much as i want to get it all out, hurt + anger don't just disappear like that. yes it's been months and everyone would presume i've let it all go but it's still eating me inside.

while i don't want to talk anymore about it, it seems like the most important people to me are just trying to brush it aside and pretend it never happened.

i will never know why things happened as they did. i know i've said before that all things happen for a reason... this time i just can't seem to find the reason.

your actions have left behind scars.
moving on is such a bitch.
wonder why i even want to come home.

Friday, August 12, 2005

Nouvelle Vague

In a Manner of speaking
I just want to say
That I could never forget the way
You told me everything
By saying nothing

In a manner of speaking
I don't understand
How love in silence becomes reprimand
But the way that i feel about you
Is beyond words

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Ohohohoh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything

In a manner of speaking
Semantics won't do
In this life that we live we only make do
And the way that we feel
Might have to be sacrified

So in a manner of speaking
I just want to say
That just like you I should find a way
To tell you everything
By saying nothing.

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Ohohohoh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

tacky men in London

badpickuplineman: "Hi lady, you look so elegant! Are you single?"
me: "Nope"
badpickuplineman: "Oh no i'm sure you're single!"

Monday, August 08, 2005


Got today off work and to dimsum i went. After which we moved on to have nice pretty desserts and tea, although i had some mandarin juice+lemongrass+mint+chilli. The tea list was impressive though it left us sniggering at the 500 year old tea which costs £210 a pot. The waitress all wore their hair in the same style+ wore white and looked good!

The rows and rows of tea containers which i like

the packing counter of takeaway orders - look at all those yellow, pink and grey ribbons! Yauatcha has very very nice packaging for their cakes, no photos though.

the Shanghai Lily that me+zy had

kenneth's cake that had some Absinth in it

Denise's cake that had lychee+raspberry

Will's cake that was to contain some 'exotic fruits' but i only see kiwi and some strawberry and and... how exotic can that be?

the very pink rose on our table.
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful,
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
but i cant escape the truth...
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yesh, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful,
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
but i cant escape the truth...
I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, its true
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

how is one suppose to react

when she realises at the age of 24 that she was 'back up' plan?

Sunday, August 07, 2005

if only i matched 5 numbers...

i would have won 1000pounds.
but i am thankful that i matched 4 anyway and won 40pounds.
better than nothing!

i'm really tired and not in the mood to blog but just want to say that for 1 girl to affect so many people with her actions, and not want to explain her reasons... why talk about karma of other people when you know that your own will come back to haunt you?

Saturday, August 06, 2005

i've got this bag that i'm selling...... but the more i look at it the more it tugs at my heart. *sigh* i dont think we have this label in spore. how how??? to sell or not to sell?

Friday, August 05, 2005

What am i like?

Your answers suggest you are a Peacemaker

The four aspects that make up this personality type are:

Spontaneous, Facts, Hearts and Introvert

Summary of Peacemakers

  • Value personal freedom
  • Particularly sensitive to the feelings of others
  • Think of themselves as steady, gentle and sympathetic
  • Others may mistake their quiet nature for weakness

More about Peacemakers

Peacemakers focus on the present and enjoy helping others in practical ways. They are sensitive to the world around them and take quiet joy from people and nature, particularly animals. Peacemakers value close relationships, but it may take time for others to get to know them.

Peacemakers are the most likely group to say they dislike reading history books, according to a UK survey.

Peacemakers live by a set of personal values, which they work hard to reflect in their everyday life. They would rather support an activity than organise it. When they do find themselves in leadership positions, they observe quietly and lead by example.

In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Peacemakers may withdraw and become self-critical. Under extreme stress, Peacemakers may become even more critical of themselves and others and make harsh judgements about minor issues.

Peacemakers tend to show someone how much they care about them by helping them in a practical way rather than putting their feelings into words.

Peacemaker Careers

Peacemakers are often drawn to jobs that allow them to serve others and require close attention to detail.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

awwww... nice black cat

"my sister is so crap in taking photos" face

"booty booty, look at the camera" face