Sunday, June 29, 2003

hee.... i'm hooked up using isaac's pac net acc. sssshhhhh........ now clearing my emails. tsk tsk, so much junk mails. =(
hmmm, life seems so boring somehow. everyone's working and i spend my afternoons wondering what to do and then....end up just sleeping in.

and i have put on soo much weight that i cannot fit into the bottoms that i left behind in spore!!!

see! clothes never lie!

Friday, June 27, 2003

ok. i am back...but i havent got my lappy hooked up to the internet connection....arghs! i am eating big time back at home and i dun think i am ever going to loose weight! *sniff*

pennapa>>> help me!! starve me when we get back to uk ok???

Saturday, June 21, 2003

ok. final moments. my sis bf is going to pick me up like now now.
tata greenwich.

3 days to flight | 4 days to touchdown

i've moved most of my stuff out....all that's left is my luggage, some laundry to be done, my cutting mat ( i just realised i forgot to pack it! ), a card from candice is still on the wall and of course my lappy and speakers.

room's so bare it's..... hard for me to describe the feeling. even my bed has been stripped of its sheets and pillows....guess tonight will be back to the basics for one last time. it all brings me back to 29th sept 02, when i first stepped into my room and loneliness just hit me.

that empty feeling is back, but i figure it's just for now.....and it reminds me of how much i already have!

so this is it i guess. one school year has passed and i'm heading home. so much happened in those 9 mths and i guess i ought to thank all you out there who stood by me when i was so down, who listened to my whines & tears, and made me the stronger person i am today. you all know who you are.....
especially you, who made the hurt and emotions deep inside me, so so much easier to bear.

God, whom i know has never forsaken me despite me being away from Him.

lastly, for every single person i know :: i wish you love....

renee | 21st June 2003 | 2.58am

Friday, June 20, 2003

3.36pm:: just showered.....took a 2 1/2 hr nap after trying to pack thru the whole night, of which i still have stuff scattered all over my room. i just cannot believe that i got so much stuff in just 9 mths!!! i didnt shop much, so how come i got so much clothes?? all the nitty gritty bits, i don't know where to put them. arghs!!!!! will be moving at 8+pm tonight...hope traffic will be good and many thanks to Sharon and Terence for helping to drive and also Allen for your suggestions.

eh...this blog now sounds weird. like some grad speech or something.

4 days to flight | 5 days to touchdown

it's 2.49am and i'm still packing...moving my stuff out tomorrow. kinda miss my hall already. come to think of it, i think it has served me very well....... 9 mths of sleep, eat, tears, laughter and screams.....and finally i'm leaving it for good. no words can explain how i really feel now. so many events that have taken place in this room and yet they are all only for me to know, for me to take with away only as memories inside my mind. memories that i don't think can ever be shared or removed.

will miss my cosy life confined in this room, the noises, the thin walls but i definately wont miss the thief!

am moving on to another phrase of my life, and i will never look back and regret.
every single thing was a lesson well learned.
tata greenwich, tata lonely life.

looping this as i pack my life up....

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
But more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love

when snowflakes fall
I wish you love

Thursday, June 19, 2003

i suddenly realised the true meaning of "no news is good news".... oh well.

this is one good song.

You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that
You Think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that.
I'll tell you you're right when you want...
Oh Oh oh-oh-oh-oh
And if only you could see into me...
Oh when you're cold I'll be there to hold you tight to me

When you're on the outside baby and you can't get in
I will show you, you're so much better than you know
When you're lost, and you're alone and can't get back again
I will find you darling, and I'll bring you home
And if u want to cry I am here to dry your eyes,
and in no time you'll be fine.....

You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that.
Think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you want
Oh, oh
If only you could see into me....

Oh when you're cold I'll be there to hold you tight to me, baby.
Ohh when you're alone I'll be there by your side baby, by your side baby.
Oh when your cold I'll be there to hold you tight to me, to me baby.
Ohh when you're alone I'll be there by your side baby.


oh, my photos from the 2nd Paris trip are already up @ the shutterfly acc. go check them out when you're free!

5 days to flight | 6 days to touchdown

its 4:12am now and as much as i wanna sleep...i cant! getting all excited about going home. not good...cos excitment just screws up my mind and doesnt let me concentrate on packing my room up.

help help help!!!!

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

I Change my Flight!!!!!! *prancing around my room*

so now its:

6 days to flight | 7 days to touchdown

flight SQ 321 | 24th june | 1800 hours | terminal 2

anyone picking me up??????
8 days to flight | 9 days to touchdown

went out yesterday to check out storage options, and it's bloody expensive! 14 weeks of storage for me and pennapa to share a 25sqft room, is like 302pounds. split that 2 ways and i still think it's obscene.

how how?? where am i going to put my shiit? =S

and i still want to change my flight to monday 23rd......but worried that if i dun settle my storage, how will i be able to fly????

*wails loudly*

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

9 days to flight | 10 days to touchdown

packed some last night......and and...thinking of changing to an earlier flight now but do i have the time to finish everything i wanna do? hmmm...... and i woke up @ 9.30am! arghs!

Monday, June 16, 2003

just went to register with my local GP, after 9 longs mths......and i'm 164cm | 5ft 4.5, and 53kg | 8.5 stones. BMI is 19.7, which is Healthy! See see! i dun need to loose weight, just need to exercise and erm tone up my body. hee.

i still havent packed. arghs! i have till the 21st before i get kicked out of my hall. that's 5 days to go.......
10 days to take off | 11 days to touchdown

ooh! it's getting so near!!! the day that i have been anticipating for ever since touching down in london. *beaming* the only thing that's getting me down is that alot of my friends are going back before me!

but oh well, now i have the huge headahce of packing my room up to go into storage. not dwelling on my stolen pot anymore, as the doc. allen has said:" there, now u have one less pot to pack!"

i don't know how you always make things seem so much better than they are. thanks for cheering me up =)

going to clear my bed again to sleep in, it's hell in here!

Sunday, June 15, 2003

woke up @ 11.30 and all i've had is water. wanted to make pancakes - no milk. so was like decided to just cook bah ku teh.......took out my chicken to defrost, soaked some dried mushroom and then i was faced with the most unimaginable situation.

my cooking pot has gone missing.

nope it's not in the other kitchen, nope its not with my flatmates.

who the bloody hell wants to steal a pot?
i so feel like slapping that thief that i don't know........but but.

WHAT CAN I DO???? i have never met someone SO LOW in my life.

now i am hungry and pissed big time.

Top 10 Ways to Jump-Start Weight Loss
by Jonny Bowden, M.A., C.N.

1. Eat protein at every meal, including breakfast.

2. Eliminate wheat- and flour-based products for the time being. And yes, that definitely includes bread and pasta.

3. Eat unprocessed foods. Ninety percent of what you eat should be food that could have been hunted, caught, gathered from the ground or plucked from a tree.

4. Reduce starch to one portion a day, and don't eat that portion during your evening meal. Best choices are oatmeal, sweet potatoes and beans.

5. Don't overdo fruit: two a day maximum, and only the low-sugar, high-fiber variety. Apples, pears, plums and berries all are good choices. Bananas are not. For now, fruit should be eaten alone or with something light like nuts or a little cheese. Lose the fruit juice.

6. Reduce or eliminate dairy for the time being, especially cow's milk. Exceptions: reasonable amounts of cheese and occasional portions of yogurt, but not the fat-free kind (it contains way too much sugar).

7. Lose the booze. Despite what the "studies" say, you lose no health benefits by giving up alcohol. There is nothing essential in alcohol that you can't get in fruits and vegetables.

8. Stop using vegetable oils such as sunflower, safflower and corn. The supermarket kind is highly refined, and it oxidizes easily when heated, contributing to arterial plaque. Use olive oil instead.

9. Watch which types of fat you're eating. The amount of fat you eat is probably less important than the kind of fat you eat. The worst are fried foods, margarine and foods that contain hydrogenized or partially hydrogenized oils. The best is omega-3, found in fish and flaxseed oil.

10. Obsessively drink water: at least eight or more large glasses each day. Every day. No excuses.

** i am very sure i posted a blog entry just now about my trip to brighton but it's not here! ARGHS!!!!!**

Saturday, June 14, 2003

for the first time, i have nothing proper to eat and i am really hungry......

no instant noodles.bread has gone vegetables.
had to resort to my left over chocolate digestive biscuits.


weighed myself and it seems that all that walking in paris didnt help a single bit. in fact, i put on another kg.

*boo hoo*

i am going running. i will somehow..........and I am the only reason why i will exercise. not for anyone else....

will blog abt paris tomorrow....going to zzz now.
been really into emo songs lately.nights.
12 days to take off | 13 days to touchdown

i'm back! and never in my life have i walked so much......

Saturday, June 07, 2003

18 days to take off | 19 days to touchdown

it's 5.12am....i think i am done packing. think, cos i have done the usual of bringing a few extra tees and stuff. why do it always do that? think i will go sleep on it for 2 hours and wake up to decide if i will throw some clothes out.


now hope i can wake up @ 7am.

Stranger :: Everyone's got to start somewhere. From strangers to lovers, then when you part, you become strangers again.
19 days to takeoff | 20 days to touchdown

its friday! and tomorrow morning i will be heading to Paris!! *grin* me and Pennapa are going to spend 3 nights in Provence, without having booked any hotel. see how we 2 gals will survive in France. heh

will go pack now i guess.....feeling weird. excited but yet unsure.

oh!! went to Wetherspoons just now for after dinner dessert and these 2 China guys approached me, trying to pick me up. Asked where i was from and they were genuinely surprised that a Singaporean can speak Mandarin (guo yu).

tsk tsk, and i thought that only the ang moh's were ignorant. seems like the Chinese aint any better!

Thursday, June 05, 2003

wed: went out and finally caught the Matrix. while the fight scene is good, i must say it's too bloody long!! The second half of the movie was better though....couldnt catch the words in certain parts ( i know i am not the only person!!! ), so am going to look for the script online. hmmm.

came back and packed some of my stuff, in preparation to move out. *sigh* so much nonsense i have acculmulated in just 9mths. gave up halfway and decided to watch 'Cast Away'. Fininshed it @ 5.30 am...........and so i only woke up @ 4pm.

yeeps. just screwed up my body clock again.

this blog is getting boring you know? i feel it myself...hmmm.

anyway, about the jeans i think i will go to paris first and come back to decide. so Candice, don't worry too much! i will somehow dig some $$$$ out for the diving classes!

"so many things to do, so little money"

Tuesday, June 03, 2003

it's 12.06pm, just woke up.....*yawn* going to get ready and go to Trinity college, for Junie's recital.

good news: went out yesterday to Bond street and i didnt buy anything! just err...10pounds on food @ Selfridges Food hall.
BAD news: i fell in love with a pair of 100pounds Levi's jeans.

ok. bet everyone's going:"what??? you aint going to pay S$280 for a pair of jean; are you?"

me: but's a Really nice pair of jeans, and you cant get it in spore (i think). besides, a pair of Diesel vintage processed jeans here retails for 110pounds, so my jeans is still not that expensive? ok. i am being very silly in trying to justify that this pair of jeans is worth my money. *sigh* I'm telling myself now to not spend too much in Paris, and come back to buy my jeans.


why didn't i just get a job here last time.........

*fustrated BIG time*

got to go......

Monday, June 02, 2003

got woken up by the postman @ 8.30am.

it's now 9.27am and my eyes are still only half open.


had a early lunch of dim sum today. soooo full! 3 hours after it and i still feel stuffed and sleepy...think i will go zzz after this entry.

it's 25 more days to Spore!!!


i cant wait!!!! i just bought 2 sets of bikinis......that's how anxious i am getting. hehehe.