Monday, May 31, 2004

bimbotic entry

okie. i left my flowers by the window sill and the strong sunshine we got today caused the petals to whilt!
stupid me.


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ignore it?
weird thought

like a kid in a candy store, i'm staring so hard at this sweet that i think i Really really want.
but i already have a nice nice bar of chocolate sitting at home.
so why do i still crave for this sweet?
why do i just want it now, this very instant, for it to be in my mouth?
aint i just being greedy?
so do i just stare at the sweet and not eat it, hoping that will make me feel contented for the moment?
and remember to eat that chocolate before it expires?

Sunday, May 30, 2004

guys, next time you want to buy a gal flowers, consider the Peony. they last Damn long, about 4 days to fully bloom from a bud and they are soooo Big when fully bloomed. And at 5pounds for 5 stalks, it's Cheap! Posted by Hello

ok i look kinda shitty next to the nice nice BIG flower but aint it pretty?? Peonies are just the loveliest flowers around, ever. Posted by Hello
oh go go , read this typo boo boo article!
just to entice you to DO read it, here is the opening paragraph:
Blessed be the proofreaders. Because of them, the new Holman Christian Standard Bible, a 20-year, $10 million translation project, will not have this sentence in Exodus 20:14: "Thou shalt commit adultery." That typo actually DID make it into the 1631 King James version of the Bible.
back... from an episode of Cosmopolitan n a horrible mixed jug of mai tai.
oh well.
sleep will be good.

Saturday, May 29, 2004

decided that since i had a temperture running, i should stay in.
went to get take-away malay food and watched the last episode of Friends~
now watching Big Brother..
a big mash of characters in that one house, think this one is going to be farnie.
i want to blade!!!!!
stayed in yesterday cos i felt a strain in the calf muscle of my right leg.
then just as i was to head out pelvis area started to ache, like a chill to my bones. stayed in and snuggled under the duvet.
it's 8pm now and it's still feeling weird.
but wat the heck.
popped 2 paracetamol and i'm heading out for fresh air~

Thursday, May 27, 2004

someone from Tiffany's just called and she say they can offer me a part-time job, to be reviewed every month!
yes yes yes!!!!!!!!!!!
just got to drop in next tuesday for an interview of sort.
that's just before i hop on the train to Manchester.
cross my fingers and hope it goes great!
soooooooooo happy!
cant sleep now.
watched in distress as Porto trashed Monaco 3-0.
Monaco has a lousy keeper.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

yakiniku don from sakura is soooo good even when it's takeaway.
the photoshoot was fun, had lots of gossip time with alice and had to do 'cheesy' poses.
we got a photo free each and no way were we going to buy any extra, cos they were obscenely priced>>a print a bit bigger than a 4R costs 30pounds!!!
loved my make up, though it's all too drama to go out with.

now all full and contented.
finish my smirnoff ice & to bed.  Posted by Hello
An Anonymous writer writes,

I never quite figured out why men and women differ so much. And I never figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women think with their heart. I have never figured out why sexual desire throws itself into the refrigerator, when it hears the words "I do".

One evening last week, my wife and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me."

I said "WHAT???!!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every husband on the planet dreads to hear..."You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?"

Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night I went to sleep.

The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to take so I told her we'll just buy them all. She wanted new shoes to compliment her new clothes, so I said lets get a pair for each outfit. We went to the jewellery department where she picked out a pair of diamond earrings. Let me tell you, she was so excited, she must have thought I was the sweetest man in the world.

She was probably almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement. Smiling with excited anticipation she finally said, "I think this is all dear, lets go to the cashier."

I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, "No honey, I don't feel like it."

Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled "WHAT??!!!" I then said "Really honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while. You're just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy your shopping needs as a woman."

And just when she had this look like she was going to kill me I added, "Why can't you just love me for who I am and not for the things I buy you?"

Apparently I will be living like a monk until sometime after pigs fly over a frozen hell.

Monday, May 24, 2004

it's a bright & warm day.... hope it's not one of those deceiving days..where u get thte sun but it's freezing cold~

going for a kinda 'makeover' thingy, as a extra with my friend lah. she got a package for her b-day gift and it's 'bring a friend' day.
hope it's fun!


OMG: Houllier got sacked???

Sunday, May 23, 2004

caught Van Helsing today and it's a good show~
and even though it had 'cheap scares' as what my friend clement said they were, those scary scenes had me squirming in my seat & hiding under my jacket.
it's good scariness though
blogging nonsense hor.

Friday, May 21, 2004

it's 5.49am
sun's out.
dried my tears.
realised that i'm only going around in circles with all this feelings i have.
dunno when they will end.
i wish they would go away.
leave me alone.

i hope i dont blog like that anymore.
it's just perpetual whining in the longrun.
ignore me.
not worth wondering at all.
i'm just a very sad girl who's simply trying to be happy.
but i can't.
i don't write anything soulful anymore.
everything's so superficial.
all i write is about the mundane things i do.

think it has just hit me.
that i have been playing hide n seek with reality for a long while.
i keep myself busy, just so i don't have to go and poke inside myself, to figure out what is wrong.

so what exactly is wrong with me???!!!
i ask over and over again
yet i dont know the answer
what have i been doing all this while?
i dont know...

tears are falling.
why why why?
why am i so messed up?
why am i so afraid?
i just dont want to be hurt again anymore.
i am beyond broken.
i seek a reason to why i cannot bring myself to love as before..
i cant find one
maybe i'm hiding it so deep.
so scared
i'm sorry
back from a shopping trip that was suppose to be a "return clothes to topshop and NOT shop trip".
that idea fell thru miserably.
ended up with 2 pairs of birkenstocks u see below, a tee & a little present for a gf.
dave got upset with the amount of shopping i've been doing lately....
i know... i'm doing impulsive buying to try and cheer myself up.
even though i know it's never going to help.
i feel satisfied for that 10mins then when i get home i regret buying and end up returning the stuff.
why why why am i still feeling so empty and down inside?
that's it.
i'm going to stay home and stuff my face with choc fudge cake and eclairs.
save money and grow fat.

men. they never understand girls and our love for shoes.

hmmmmm Posted by Hello

errrrr....which one's nicer? Posted by Hello

Thursday, May 20, 2004

wah! this new Hello program that helps you to host and upload photos to your blog is easy peasy to use. it's free!

whhhhooooo. i lurve blogger~

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as of 8.47pm on the 19th of may, i'm free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm done. over with school~
just a one-on-one tutorial with lecturer next tuesday.
that's it!

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

that's it. bullshitted my way to another 1602 words.
no more.
fail me all you want.
i don't give a damn.
not now.
it's sad but yet it's calming to my soul....

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I felt like I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
to hear those words from you

Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you

Evanescence|forgive me
here i am struggling with my 2nd essay, stuck at 992 words out of 2000 expected of me. and when i turn my head to look out the window, all i see are these throng of people sunbathing in the little garden downstairs!

i got women in bikinis+sarongs and half naked men.
how am i suppose to concentrate?????
so tired.
can't even churn out a 1500 word dissertation proposal.
got stuck at 1160 words and gave up.
now another 2000 word essay to go......which i didnt get any books to reference to.
lets all see how i bluff my way through this one.

Sunday, May 16, 2004

had lip-smacking roast duck for lunch, then went to to grab a double scoop of sorbet to sweeten up the end of a great meal.
went to to hyde park (again!) and thought i was literally burning in the sun but alas, didnt get a tan leh~
made a new friend and she's way down to earth and damn chatty+nice.
another shopping+eating+bitching pal!
so much for trying to do work huh...

Saturday, May 15, 2004

friends are out at town eating dinner...followed with drinks for sure.
i SO want to go but but, i have to stay in!
got a dateline on monday.
i hate this!

Thursday, May 13, 2004

a trip out to buy materials ended up with waaaaaay too much spending.
bought 2 pairs of shoes, 1 dress, 2 tee and a little foldable side table.
someone cut my credit card!!!!

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

dateline next monday.
not in the greatest of all moods.
stressed up with too many things to do and with
NOBODY understanding why the hell i am so uptight.

at least not till next wed.
too tired to eat or do anything.
school is killing me and my mood to blog.
am very surprised by the new blogger log-in interface.
feeling shitty.

Saturday, May 08, 2004

"Had I become so jaded that I didn’t even recognized romance when it kissed me on the lips?"
getting my dosage of SNTC to take my mind off schoolwork. love it, cause most of the time they manage to come up with thought invoking lines.

"Then I had a thought. Maybe I didn’t break Big. Maybe the problem was he couldn’t break me. Maybe some women aren’t meant to be tamed. Maybe they need to run free until the find someone just as wild to run with."

am i ready?
i wish i knew and i wish the answer was a Yes.
but truthfully, i dont know...

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

i've spent 6 f***ing hours trying to set up my adsl ethernet modem+linksys wireless router but it doesnt work!!!!!!
the freaking modem cannot dial up to AOL.
i dont know what the hell more to do.
cant even get a bloody modem to work. how difficult can that be?
i am SO FREAKING tired and fustrated by all this shit.

Monday, May 03, 2004

i want to soak up the sun....
soaked in the sun at hyde park, munching on strawberries and sipping white wine.
was really great weather today....
tomorrow onwards it will be shitty for one whole week.
back to cold and wet weather again.
cant wait for the sun to be out, so i can go boating and work some muscles~
doesnt help that i just had a huge vietnamese dinner.

Saturday, May 01, 2004

it's 1.44pm on a saturday. my friends are in town shopping & waiting for me to get my butt down.
but i am watching sex n the city~
just caught this episode where miranda plays peek-a-boo with a guy from the opp flat and boy is he HOT!
i'm practically drooling with a silly smile on my face.
too much info.
i'm going to catch england vs japan on 1st june!
watching Distraction on channel4 now and its making me want to puke!!!!!
they contestants have to answer questions and if they get it right, they have to drink a shot of their own piss!
4 shots in total...
i think i am going to puke.
the loser just said:
"i just drank piss for nothing"
think i'm turning green at this moment