Deleted

In box/sent box's completely empty.
Just need to work on those 'saved' messages later.

Sigh.

I pray for strength.

Ouch ouch ouch!

Damn I knew it was coming but yet I still had to bite hard on my lips to remind myself not to shed any tears, along with taken quick deep breaths (thought I was going to hyperventilate for a moment...)

So I end up with watery eyes and temptation to burst out into tears any moment but I know I should not.

Ok ok calm down. *breath breath*

"Now you know what to do come midnight tonight"

I am so not looking forward to 2009


*There are only so many ways to break me - I think he has done so in all possible ways*

Cupcakes

Everytime I see one, I'm sure I will think of you...
Maybe all the better - so that I will lay off red velvets and get red of my sweet tooth.

Ha. Sorry for the pun but it sure made me laugh when I'm supposed to be emo at this moment.

Eleven minutes into the 31st

I am very scared of 2009.

Because 2009 is when I am suppose to make major decisions/changes/choices - and I don't really want to face them all.

Can I just stay in 31st 2008 forever? First time in my life that I am not looking to the clock striking twelve... fireworks will make me smile, but at that same moment - I know my heart will be breaking.

='(

no regrets

"All I ever wanted was for you to know,
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul"

I blame only myself

I need to stop sending sms's when I'm not sober.

Happy Boxing Day

Hope yours was good, because mine was.
Again I don't know where this is going and how it's going to end but... At least I know I'm happy when I see him.

25th December 2008

Christmas celebrations - considered low key this year.

Dinner with bunch of friends, on to winebar to 'count down' - it was SO quiet... then on to a friend's house party where there was awesome Lobster Bisque to dunk bread with, chill, drink, chat...

Ahh... getting old for sure but even then, I only crawled into bed at 7am.

Heh.

21.12.08

I don't know why but after we said goodbye @ the station and as I walked away... a part of me felt that it was going to be the last time that I would ever see you again.

There are so many things I wish to say but I know it's never going to happen because we will never get the chance - and so I just let these thoughts cloud my mind.

Cloud... Yes, You Cloud my waking moments.

Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine

December 08

On my usual mundane bus ride to work today... when I realized that it's been exactly a year since I've 'officially' moved back home to SG.

1 year - I don't think I've accomplished much in this 1 year... I've worked for 6months and.... made some big decisions... met people who made an impact on my life... made new friends, caught up with the old ones ... and?

Wow.

365days just went by me without me realizing it.

I wonder how I will spend my next 365days - oh wait, why think?

=)

Hmmm... nice lyrics

你是愛我的

同样的一场日落
同样你还是没说
只是抱紧我
时间一到就松手
你用一万个理由
都比沉默还温柔
为什么爱我又不断退后
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛
我要相信你是爱我的
我要相信你是勇敢的
我烦时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要相信你是爱我的
不要当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯
我用一万个答案
解释我们的距离
到最后发现我全都猜错
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛
我要相信你是爱我的
我要相信你是勇敢的
我烦时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要相信你是爱我的
不要当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯
你怀里有太多问号
告诉我怎么依靠
我要相信你是爱我的
我要相信你是勇敢的
我烦时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要相信你是爱我的
不要当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

Zoukout '08 was a Blast!

15.12.08 - 53.5

Ah.... failed Kebaya @ STC (again)
Wonder what's the problem with it when I'm @ STC - have always passed it when it's at Sheraton!

Oh well, life goes on =)
Next walk-in is during Jan... hope thing's go better then.

Positive note for the day: I weighed in at 53.5kg!

Whooo~ Nearing my target of 50kg soon.

Red Velvet Cupcakes

First attempt, wonder how they taste...

A dress that distracted me!

Can't wait to go back and get it.
It's a size 4 & too big! Sheesh... did I really loose THAT much weight?
hmmm...