i don't write anything soulful anymore.
everything's so superficial.
all i write is about the mundane things i do.

think it has just hit me.
that i have been playing hide n seek with reality for a long while.
i keep myself busy, just so i don't have to go and poke inside myself, to figure out what is wrong.

so what exactly is wrong with me???!!!
i ask over and over again
yet i dont know the answer
what have i been doing all this while?
i dont know...

tears are falling.
why why why?
why am i so messed up?
why am i so afraid?
i just dont want to be hurt again anymore.
i am beyond broken.
i seek a reason to why i cannot bring myself to love as before..
i cant find one
maybe i'm hiding it so deep.
so scared
i'm sorry