i didnt write the previous entry with the intention of hurting anyone, especially you.

sorry if it hurt anyone else.

sorry for using the word 'hate'.

i think it was all the anger inside me that i couldnt get rid of.

it all boils down to me: i cannot handle this, and running from God isn't helping.

i know it's all part of a bigger picture, of a plan that God has laid out for me.

i just have to face it straight on and stop running in circles.

i'm sorry.

not that 'sorry' heals or undo everything,

but i hope somehow it does.